Category: Unum Quadraginta

As I read through the book of Esther (and many of the books of the Bible), I am always amazed at the role reversals. Those who think highly of themselves are brought down. Those willing to sacrifice themselves are lifted up. Haman, who sought to annihilate the Jews, because of the disregard of Mordecai, ends up executed and on display for all to see. Mordecai, the lowly gatekeeper, is promoted to second in command of the empire. Esther, who was willing to die for her people, ends up becoming the heroine who rescues them. When Dwayne Johnson was actively wrestling as the Rock, he would always say, “Know your role. Shut your mouth.” It seemed so rude (and awesome) at the time, but there was so much wisdom for all of life in this short outburst of bravado. Stay humble.

Post Mission Syndrome. Post Outreach Syndrome? Semantics. Most career missionaries wouldn’t call a 10-day trip to a foreign country missions. So, “outreach” is probably a better term. Either way, PMS and POS are pretty negative acronyms used to refer to the feelings one has after serving others outside of one’s own home turf.

They say that soldiers get Post Deployment Syndrome because all they have experienced on the battlefield. Coming back home to a comfortable environment seems like such a lie. Forgive me for equating VBS with war, but to some degree, it seems the only way to explain what a short-term “missionary” feels. You come back feeling like you really engaged in spiritual warfare. You feel like you’ve faced the enemy and the only way that you could have survived was because you depended entirely on the Holy Spirit.

Here’s another I started two years ago after reading 21st Century Pastor by David C. Fisher for seminary. Did anyone else have long discussions in high school English about “appearance versus reality?” After undergraduate/graduate education, you come up against “expectation versus reality.” As young professionals, we believe (with our newly acquired knowledge) we can take on the world. The reality is . . . theory clashes with practice. It reminds me of Human Development majors who would try to give advice to my wife and I about raising our first daughter. Rather than feeling grateful, we often felt insulted. Our child was not developing at the rate that she should be. I digress. As pastors (and church leaders), it should not be our goal to rush people into conformity. Rather, it should be our goal that people experience transformation as they encounter Christ.

Excerpt: I have a theory about starting out in a ministry. We all begin with high ideals and expectations. It takes about three years for me to offend everyone (although some pastors can do it a lot quicker). By then I’ve failed to meet all the impossible and unspoken expectations of the congregation. And by then they’ve disappointed me and failed to live up to my unreal expectations. Then, and only then, can real pastoral ministry begin, for it is then that we have to decide if we will love one another and believe the gospel. But too often we can’t make that decision. Far too many of us are wrecked on the shore of harsh reality. Pastors inevitably report a high level of frustration in their vocation. We are frustrated about conflict in the church, futility in our labor, and failure in our people.

This is actually a post I started two years ago around this time. I had just finished reading Living Life for the day and I felt compelled to write a post on it, but never got around to it. The devotional for the day was entitled “The Dangers of Idolatry” (Exodus 32:1-10). It’s the passage where Moses is taking too long on the mountain, so Aaron crafts a golden calf for the people. The funny thing about this event is that it makes me wonder about hearts. I think there were good intentions: “Give us something to worship. Something we can see. Something we don’t have to wait for.” If you read their language, it seems they are trying to worship God their own way and in their own time. I don’t know. Sounds like the church today. “Worship my way.”